A pause

I need to make a big decision, perhaps one of the biggest I've ever made. In reality it isn’t that major, I know, but it feels that so much depends on it. And the problem, of course, is that I'm desperately trying to avoid making it. Every time it crops up I put it back, shelve it, park it to one side. Put it on that pile, on that long list, of things you need to do. Hoping that, just like the shopping list you prepare, you will either forgot things from the list, or completely forget the list itself.